I just realize
he doesn't care about me, at all
all the fantasy were made up just by myself
he doesn't care
he doesn't give a shit
he talked a lot
there would be 5-10 msg he's got every day
unlike me, i only talk to him
and i put him in a special place in my heart
no wonder he'd ask "why?" when I said "I missed all the class." "I missed you alot." "I lost my goal in life."....
what am I doing?
what have I been doing?
he only regards me as a teacher
maybe his favorite teacher (?)
if not, maybe a special teacher
but he doens't care about me as i care about him
this time, it's real
i mean it
this is never ending
and it's torturing me